and u all are concerned, one way or another.
but,
it's kinda hard to stop.
not tat i'm totally into it.
just tat whenever i feel down,
it's my form of destress,
form of escape.
cos nobody's there
n i'm v tired,
been clear for 2 days.
totally not lookin forward to go home.
i'll die faster.
n somebody called smallfat a rat. despicable.. haha. RAT??!! u homo sapien. sputnik spunned @2:07 PM
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
f**k
i've desperately tried to crawl out, but i am gradually sinkin back in.
ain't goin as well,
ain't goin as hoped.
f**k
f**k
f**k
f**k
you know how it is when u want smth so bad, you'll DIE to hv it?
and the alcholic driver said to the traffic officer: "I can't take the breath test. I've got blood in my alcohol system"
nobody will be there for you. nobody.
what's the point of pinnin hopes on the softboard? sputnik spunned @3:55 PM
i've desperately tried to crawl out, but i am gradually sinkin back in.
ain't goin as well,
ain't goin as hoped.
f**k
f**k
f**k
f**k
you know how it is when u want smth so bad, you'll DIE to hv it?
and the alcholic driver said to the traffic officer: "I can't take the breath test. I've got blood in my alcohol system"
nobody will be there for you. nobody.
what's the point of pinnin hopes on the softboard? sputnik spunned @3:55 PM
Monday, April 21, 2008
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again
I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big (so big)
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........
No. No.
I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
No. No. I
don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day
No. No. No. No.
I don't want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
No. No. No.No
I don't want to meet your friend
I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.
Na na nana....No.
Please I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now...
No.
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now..
Na nana..
Everything is wonderful now... sputnik spunned @12:17 PM
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again
I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big (so big)
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Na na nana........
No. No.
I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
No. No. I
don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day
No. No. No. No.
I don't want to hear you say that you both have grown in a different way
No. No. No.No
I don't want to meet your friend
I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.
Na na nana....No.
Please I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now...
No.
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now..
Na nana..
Everything is wonderful now... sputnik spunned @12:17 PM
Thursday, April 17, 2008
freaking wanna have it back in my system.
freaking need a ..........
now I can't get it out of my head. sputnik spunned @10:23 PM
freaking need a ..........
now I can't get it out of my head. sputnik spunned @10:23 PM
Sunday, April 13, 2008
nobody will ever ever understand
i must grow up now.
it must be tough,
deciding where to leave the mark.
how does it feel
when it gushes out?
would you let it flow
would you dry it up
would you just carry on?
i hate to have to think abt the pple who will be affected by me
cos then, I can't do what i wanna do.
it's kinda sucky cos i'm living for others.
and I've be what they perceived.
there's smth wrong with me. i just dun wanna admit.
the devils in my head
questionin every step i take.
the more i haven't tried it, the more i want to feel
but i'm a coward
this time, I'll prove you wrong.
runnin out of time though. shit.
tell me how to concentrate on studying. sputnik spunned @10:23 PM
i must grow up now.
it must be tough,
deciding where to leave the mark.
how does it feel
when it gushes out?
would you let it flow
would you dry it up
would you just carry on?
i hate to have to think abt the pple who will be affected by me
cos then, I can't do what i wanna do.
it's kinda sucky cos i'm living for others.
and I've be what they perceived.
there's smth wrong with me. i just dun wanna admit.
the devils in my head
questionin every step i take.
the more i haven't tried it, the more i want to feel
but i'm a coward
this time, I'll prove you wrong.
runnin out of time though. shit.
tell me how to concentrate on studying. sputnik spunned @10:23 PM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008