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Sunday, March 30, 2008

it's like sitting at the edge of the building.
one wrong thing u say, i'll jump.

suffocating as the air slowly seeps away.
intoxicating fumes.
as it glows in the dark,
leaving ashes of broken hearts.

cutting myself up,
scars, they will nv go.
three cheers to sweet revenge,
i'll be the first to laugh.

whenever your world's start crashing down,
there's where you'll find me.
sputnik spunned @11:44 PM

 

Saturday, March 29, 2008

a girl's man,
a boy's lady.

every notion is a contradiction.
happiness was when I was 15.
jaded.

and I ain't as strong as I thought I'll be.
I miss you, but that's history.
miserable bliss indeed.

can't stop them from coming.
can't fight back yesterday.
sputnik spunned @12:12 AM

 

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

amazing,
the amount of food i've been consuming.
incredible,
the number of nights my stomach's growling.

does studying really make one hungry? or is it the merely finding smth to do other then studying?

if i'm not lazy, i would buy a non-stick pan. and eggs and cooking oil. and a small bowl. pepper and salt. and bread. beat the egg into a neat mixture of yellow and white. soak the bread entirely in it and give it a good fry. bombay toast. or simply, lay a slice of cheese on the bread, give it a light toast to melt the cheese and top it off with scrambled eggs.

if i'm not lazy, i would even buy a wok. fry some rice. perfect for supper.

but the thought of washing up after eating.. totally puts me off. it's not tat bad back at home.. at least, i can put off washin until i really feel like washing.

hungry....

from slpin early to waking early... to slping late.. and later... but still wakin relatively early.. a couple of frens ald noted their surprise in seeing me online at wee wee hours. when did all this start? i amaze myself sometimes.

really hate being a girl sometimes. can't just go away like that. alone. need to get out! totally understand how A feels when he said he wanna run away from everything. poor kid.. 6 years is too damn long to hang on.

it wouldn't be long, till we are all gone, lying in the ground.
sputnik spunned @7:22 AM

 

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

a wonderful morning. =)

air is so much fresher and cooler out there,
that steppin back in, humidity is so intense.

climb, as high as you can.
till you are so close to the stars.
clouds fadin in and out,
hues like the painter's palette.

orderin mac at 4am?
i'm not the only one.

to all that so cope up in their room studyin,
venture out and up.
i'm sure it'll be rewardful.

glad i took the chance.
2 hrs out there,
beats slpin away another day.

thank you
sputnik spunned @7:22 AM

 

Monday, March 17, 2008

should i surface this one-man submarine?

hiccups..
it all comes to the same.
clear liquor and cloudy eyes.
can't explain what you can't explain.
maybe it's best to leave me alone.
sputnik spunned @7:22 AM

 

Monday, March 10, 2008

i swore i wouldn't cry,
but they couldn't help themselves.

it's not easy.
standin behind a wall.
what should i say,
to stop them from comin?

regrets.

please let me pull through these
sputnik spunned @10:17 PM

 

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

oblivious of time and of pple.
a lunch, finally.
but end up eating in silence.

patience has run out,
it's my moral value.
doesn't time wait for no man?

tired and sick,
of such disregard
sputnik spunned @10:17 PM

 

Saturday, March 01, 2008

permanent and significant bulge.
so embarrassing and ashamed.

i do not comprehend the overwhelming tiredness i've been experiencing since start of uni. i can doze off at the slightest moment, and sink into a short dream. like a series of pictures flashing through me, and as unexpected as i fell asleep, i jolt awake. concentration is one thing tat is totally lacking. i can slp 8 hrs a day, drink 3, 4 packets of coffee and still cannot concentrate..

white sneakers and black shades.
sputnik spunned @10:17 PM