sch... is tiring .. really. i find myself so tired, but i can't slp.. i guess partly cos i'm teachin tuition at bishan twice at week.. some more durin weekdays... sigh.. i need the money..! really happy to hv the ability to buy things for my family.. just hope i wouldn't hv to sacrifice my weekends too..

hate havin tutorial day on monday. means i hv to rush thurs and fri's lecture's hw durin weekends. which i wouldn't cos weekends is meant to relax.. so i try to rush before the lecture.. sian sian sian.

i haven't seen aud, si ya for quite some time. and cyclin w li hui has always been postponed.

today my teacher said smth that is v true: when u grow up, u start to miss the past. miss ur childhood. that innocence. when sch work wasn't so time consumin so there's alot of time to play. now, everybody hv their own stuff to do, so hard to find time to do things together.

suddenly i feel so old.. i hate to know that i'm old. still fightin to retain those traces of innocence that still run through my veins. i don't want to become wat society expects me to be. i don't want to be just anyone else. can i really run away from society's perceptions? all these yrs, we've been taught to behave the way society thinks we shld behave, to do the things that are accepted, but yet, nobody teaches us how to be ourselves. so who am i now? me? or another robot programmed by society?

i don't hv the ans, cos i don't know who am i. sputnik spunned @8:32 PM